Battling Satan

Those of you who have read my 2009 resolutions may recall what I resolved to do, including evangelism and bringing the lost back to God. Well, much easier said than done.

Since the turn of the new year, I have been having insomnia, which is very bad for my Bipolar Disorder. I get cranky, moody, agitated, and worst of all, near the point of insanity. I knew I was at the peak of my manic episode, and as usual I played with my cocktail of medicines to get the right dose to balance it off. But it never seemed to work.

I recall on the 3rd day of the new year I prayed to God to send me a guardian angel to constantly remind me to be humble where the children's teachers are concerned. Nathanial has been streamed to one of the better classes while Natalie's class is a mixture of students. Even on day 1 of school on 2nd January I was busy comparing and commenting on the differences between the 2 form teachers, their efficiency levels based on what they have done in the day. God indeed sent me a guardian angel in the form of Lay Choo, though for a purpose much more important than what I prayed for.

For several nights I have been sleeping in the study on the sofa bed. It gives me a sense of security somehow, with the arm rests just next to me whichever side I turn. All thanks to my guardian angel, I realise I'm running away from Satan. And that really created a completely different perspective to whatever has been bugging me. Yeah, so it was Satan. With me out of action, he wouldn't be worried about more lost souls being brought to God, perhaps I would even become his slave. And with me not in control of myself, how would it be possible for me to help my disciple Natalie Chan?

I thank God for sending me my guardian angel at a crucial time like this. Now I know altering the dosage of medication alone will not help me, for it is not only a medical condition that is bugging me but a spiritual issue as well. Satan, sorry to say I've seen through your plot once again with God's blessings and the sisters' help, you've gotta try harder than that to get me! Be ready that I will put up a fierce battle against you, for I am God's army!