For I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need. But even so, you have done well to share with me in my present difficulty. ~Phil 4:13-14
Dearest Heavenly Father,
This is the moment when I am most susceptible to Satan's lure and bait, for it has been a roller coaster week ending with a young innocent life taken. Though I may not know the deceased, I do know that Nathanial's Taekwondo instructor used to hang out in the same group and would in fact have been in trouble that same night if he hadn't been vigorously training for the upcoming tournaments in Melaka and Korea. Being such a nice humble young man, I'm sure his friend couldn't be that extreme.
God, who do young innocent lives have to pay for something they have not done while the culprits get off scot-free? Do we have to wait till Judgement Day to see justice done? What if the murderer repents and becomes a disciple? Wouldn't have the innocent guy died in vain?
Father, we're all Your children, I know You love us all. But sometimes I really don't understand how things work with You. In my earthly and simplistic mind, right is right and wrong is wrong. There is hardly any grey lines in between. Why do punks who intentionally seek trouble seriously injure innocents and get off scot-free while the innocents are left to pick up the bits and pieces, sometimes even losing their lives in the process? The hurt the family feels, the agony, the injustice, the unfairness... all these because we are descendants of Adam and Eve? What if the poor boy has never given Discipleship a second thought, a common phenomenon at his age? Is he then going to hell for something that happened out of his control? while the culprit has time to repent and get baptised and seek Your pardon? Why did it have to happen at the Chinatown light-up and not during Christmas, when I was spending the night at Natalie's mum's wake? It was so near, I would have heard the commotion and alerted the police, and the poor guy wouldn't have died such a tragic death!
Father, I'm really struggling to do things in Christ's strength at the moment. Well, with Your strength either. My emotions are all in a roller coaster, and I have a problem catching hold of it. Yet I know medication is not the solution. Lord, I want to talk to Karen Louis tonight after the midweek service, please help me to get the story straight and gain some useful insight into how to grapple with this problem from her.
In Jesus' most precious name I pray. Amen.
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thanks for pouring your heart and being open..
will pray for u...
luv,
veron
Hi Carol, your thoughts are so real and it reminds me of Solomon wrote in Eccles 7 on The Limits of Human Wisdom
15 I have seen everything in this meaningless life, including the death of good young people and the long life of wicked people. 16 So don’t be too good or too wise! Why destroy yourself? 17 On the other hand, don’t be too wicked either. Don’t be a fool! Why die before your time? 18 Pay attention to these instructions, for anyone who fears God will avoid both extremes.[a]
We are praying for you and family :)
ops forgot to sign name, its Pauline :)
Hi Veron, Pauline and Grace especially,
Thanks for your advice. Without you I don't know how I'm going to ride through this roller coaster. It's been swift ups and downs all week, and I am so emotionally drained, and I still have a brand new schedule to get used to. The past 2 times this had led me into confinement in hospital. This time I'm so much more fortunate for I have you gals by my side giving me advice, and I have the Holy Spirit to guide me to avoid the extremes.
Much as I know most of my emotions are caused by Satan trying to pull me away from God, I can't deny that with my training in Literature I tend to be much more emotionally upset than most. It is so difficult to curb this part of me that is undesirable, yet this is what God made me to be, to be sensitive to how others feel.
Thought by tonight or tomorrow I can move back into my room and out of solitude. Looks like I need more time on my own still.
Love,
Carol
Hi Carol, thanks for pouring your heart out to us. I totally agree with Pauline's sharing. I feel a lot too when such things happen actually. I think many pp do, esp to someone u know may be a good , sincere guy. In Romans 1:20, bible mentioned about how we through God's creation will have a glimpse of him. We don't have answers to everything. Sometimes, if we get too affected,it helps when we try to stop ourseleves from dwelling too much into it. I know it is very difficult. I definitely rem many such times I went through, stories I hear. Take heart sister, that God is JUST ultimately....and imagine how he feels with this incident that affected you so much. Rem what Matthew shared in Jn 11:35 "Jesus wept"
love,sk
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