Prayer - Guarding Hearts

Dear God,

I feel v happy today. Maybe I am relieved by 2 big tasks at work that just ended yesterday. Perhaps today is going to be a relaxing day at work (attending staff conference with tea-break provided in the morning) as well as attending team building in the pm, which should be something fun.

However, at the very back of my mind, there is a little burden I feel and I AM PRAYING to get it off complete. Basically I did a presentation for some students, together with a colleague yesterday, and guess what, at the end of it, a student commented that my presentation is not as good as hers.

On one note (trust me), I really really appreciate the student's feedback. On the other note, cannot help feeling discouraged. Somemore, my part was the only one that my boss attended. Not only, my boss but many colleagues as well ;) Actually it is good that I have the conviction that you were in charge, if not I would have been so much more discouraged hearing criticisms aka hearing the truth! But knowing you allow this to happen, I feel more secure, less worried.

The truth is my colleague is indeed a natural presenter and saleswoman, a much better one than me. So, what can I do about it? Just be humble and learn from her I guess. But it is difficult, difficult because of my schema of Unrelenting Standard. I tend to compare myself with those better. I find it difficult to forgive myself. I tend to be upset and blamed myself for not doing a better job.

Anyway, if I dwell more into it, I would have sinned against you. I want to repent quickly.

Read a verse this morning in:

Pro 4:23
Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.

How true. We must guard our own hearts everyday.
May I use today to guard my heart and be close to you.

Amen!
SK