I’ve start reading the New Testament since January. Now I'm stuck at revelations. N today I happened to read Karen insights about revelations.

In chapter one.
What weapon do you wield when fighting the world every day? Is it your own wisdom? Do you have a limited arsenal? Are you even fighting? Jesus, THE WORD, literally spoke, and a sword came out! Wow!

This question convicts me. Everyday do I really hold on to the word of Sword to fight the world.?

I have been sick. First is Jason , then verdelle then me. Then verdelle again. When I’m down with bad flu and cough and fever, it can be weak and very depressing. Difficult to pray and focus on the bible. So my Qt is suffering.
Then, my gals have some changes in the school. I was very nervous and worried. And Jason was not around; I had to handle all by myself.
However, this week is better, though I still cough badly. I decided “force “myself to get with Christians to pray with me in the morning. Went to see the nature of the lord and breath in fresh air and reaching out to lost soul in park, help me focus on the lord then to be self focus.

I feel so much better. (Thank God for putting Christians in my life)

Everyday is challenging and full of trials. When we self-focus, trials and challenging situation will be look even more bigger...

But I need to focus on the word of God who will give me power and fighting aid for heart and my soul n mind. I was depending on my own wisdom instead of base on God’s wisdom.
I need to repent and surrender to God for wisdom and strength.

That reminds me of this verse: Trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding, in all my way acknowledge him, he will make my path straight.

I watched the 9pm Chinese drama, the housewife tale. I felt so much as I think it is real challenge and struggles for them. I think lot housewives out there are really lost and helpless without God. Their only focus is the family, kids and house chores, but inwardly they struggle with insecurity and helpless which they may have no one to turn to.

God, I pray, being a housewife and part-time tutor, please use me despite my weakness to reach out lost and helpless housewife and also the students. Who needs God in their life as they security and strength. Give me the open harvest field and use me in whatever way u want.

In Jesus name, amen.