Feeling vexed the past 2 days. For a few months Adrian has been fighting against extreme fatigue, he has been extremely burnt out at work and at home. Obviously I'm not much of a help with my mood swings going roller coaster every other day. Fortunately he has a reasonably understanding lady boss who treats him like a godson, and her husband definitely adores Adrian. But that is no excuse for Adrian to be late for work almost everyday.
A couple of days ago, Adrian shared with me that his lady boss spoke to him, telling him that if I have insomnia, he should just leave me to do my stuff while he goes to bed. Nothing wrong with the statement, except that I am not the one keeping him up late into the night!!! Truth be it, many a times I don't even get to see him when he comes home late, because I go to bed early, sometimes as early as 9.30pm. Especially weekends, I could sleep from late afternoon to the next day. It is Adrian himself who chooses to sleep late. Sometimes when he feels like taking a cat nap before doing some work, he'd sleep til morning. I feel really upset that he did not have the courage to voice out that it's his problem and not mine, that I am not the one causing him to have late nights and inadequate sleep. As a matter of fact I've been struggling to keep up with his late night habits ever since we got married, until I was diagnosed and put on medication which causes me excessive drowsiness. I sleep on the average 9 to 13 hours a day. If you can do your Maths, I must sleep no later than 11pm, otherwise I won't be able to wake up the next day to cook lunch and pick the kids!
It somehow reminds me of the lies and deceit in Abraham and his descendants, in order to cover their sins and have their way. Well, I suppose this is a coping mechanism of human kind, no one in the right mind in Adrian's situation would tell the boss the truth. I am doing my best to focus on how much he loves the family, what an awesome husband he is, how hard he works to provide for the family, rather than dwell in a little fault of his. I am keeping myself busy praying about how I'm feeling and readingthe Bible about it. Sisters, please pray with me too.
Love you all,
Carol
1 comment:
Yes, u are right sis. I have been wanting to blog for so long but can't find time. So much to share!
Anyway, about hubbies, we are really really fortunate to have Christian husbands indeed.
Mine sleeps very late as well. There is never-ending things to do...sigh...and I am sleeping late too.
Pray for one another!
love,sk
love,sk
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